We Are Loved

Today was better. I woke up feeling exhausted and slept for a bit longer. I went downstairs and ate breakfast, read my Bible and dozed off for a while. Then one of the girls came downstairs and started playing on her Nook and I ended up dozing off again for a little while longer. I was just exhausted!! And as much as I originally didn't want to, I ended up going with Becca and the 5 kids to a water park, Hawaiian Falls, just 20 minutes away. After getting there I didn't do much, just sat around and waited for my sunblock to sink in before getting wet and I eventually went on some slides and after that, I ended up spending about 4 or 5 hours out in the sun, in the water. We went on huge water slides, little water slides, but I think the majority of my time was spent in the wave pool. When the waves were on I felt so relaxed and peaceful, and it made me miss the ocean...even though sometimes I get freaked out by the waves in the ocean cuz they're so freaking huge! It was nice.

And all throughout the day I was reminded of how loved I am, and how all of us are actually. I have a parents and siblings who support me in everything I do. I have a fun job with kids and parents that adore me and want me to come back every summer until the oldest goes off to college practically haha. I have friends who will answer my phone calls, answer my facebook messages and emails in which I complain or vent and just pour my heart out into, and I have a boyfriend with a family who has claimed me as one of their own. I realized today that it's so easy for me to get caught up in my sad and lonely or angry feelings, even though they don't come that often, and I tend to act out on those or make it very obvious to my loved ones how I'm feeling. But I also realized that I don't notice all the good things in my life often enough, I don't thank God for everything he has given me. I worry and stress about things that are coming my way and that I have little to no control over. I let the stress and worries of this worldly life get to me far too easily than I should, and I don't enjoy the little moments in life. And the thing that struck this realization in me was Isaiah 43:2-3. God will always be with me. He'll always provide for me. And I don't have to do anything in return except for accept His gifts to me and live the way he commands us to live.

We are loved. It's as simple as that.
And that's life through the eyes of a banana munchkin.