I thought Physical Therapy was the way to go. I thought I wanted to be a therapist. But this job as a Physical Therapy Aide just isn't all that it was cracked up to be. Maybe it's the people I work with. Or my expectations were just too high and I was expecting more. Whatever it was, this isn't my calling. I do enjoy getting to help people and see them improve, but honestly, who enjoys stretching people out for 4 hours a day? Not me. Yes, there are certain aspects of the job I enjoy, but I could always find other jobs with similar things that I'd enjoy so much more. I miss being a barista sometimes. Now, I do not miss the 3am mornings and being exhausted all the time, but I definitely miss the challenge of making perfect coffee and espresso and getting to hang out with fun people and being in a relaxing atmosphere and just getting to interact with people who love coffee and often want to learn more about it. So, now I'm forced to make a decision. Do I stay at the clinic? Do I pursue something else?
After going through the pros and cons in my head and talking to Sean about it, I know that I'm not meant to stay at the clinic. But I don't know if this a waiting period that God has me in. I do, however, believe that I should be doing as much as possible to see what other doors will open for me. Now, mind you, I'm not taking matters into my own hands. I promise. I just wanna make sure I'm not just sitting back and not pursuing things God has laid out for me.
If anyone out there is reading this, I would definitely appreciate prayer in regards to my future. I don't want to pursue a full-time career, because I definitely want to be a stay-at-home mother when the time comes. But I want something fun with people I enjoy working with and actually am able to interact with. I want to be in a place where it's not too busy to be interacting with and getting to know your coworkers. I want to be showing Christ's love and spreading His word when things are keeping us so busy we don't even talk. And that's the problem with this current job. I try to be a light, but it's practically impossible because we're constantly running around doing laundry, cleaning, helping patients and all that. But I am building relationships with the patients which helps a bit.
Anyways, I just have to keep in my one of my favorite verses. "Rejoice always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances." 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
And that's life through the eyes of a banana munchkin. Sayonara, for now, folks!
Oh, and meet the newest member of the Hogan clan. This is Meeko! Our giant panda. And he is legendary :)
