Don't Stop Believin'

Today was a good and busy day. I had all 5 kids all to myself cuz Matt went out of town for a meeting and Becca had work, as usual. Thankfully the kids were in good moods and I didn't have to solve any arguments or figure out why certain kids were crying or complaining or whining. It was good. Even Becca wasn't a huge pain in my neck. Of course, I had a blanket over my shoulders and was walking in small circles for about 2 hours, but it was fine. It helped that we were watching a movie so it kinda distracted me and made time go by faster.

I also had a really good conversation on the phone last night. I had somewhat of a breakdown when I went to bed and couldn't fall asleep for at least a couple of hours. I'm very grateful that Sean called me though, cuz if he hadn't then I don't know if would've gotten any sleep at all. He always gives such good advice and helps put my mind back into perspective. Basically, I need to stop doubting and being so hard on myself and I need to be content with who I am, and by doing so, I'll naturally start improving. It's like a sub-conscious thing I guess. Anyways...I think that it was mostly because of that conversation that I was able to stay patient and optimistic today and that, in turn, just made it into a good day. So, I've learned to never stop believing in myself. Cuz nobody's perfect. I should strive to be the best I can be, but not kill myself when I mess up.

And that's life through the eyes of a banana munchkin.



"Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."
              ~Romans 15:13